HELLO PEOPLE.😊

 

Hello lovely people!

How are you all? I hope good.

Well,i have been inactive on wordpress lately,and could not read any new posts but now i will try to be regular here.

I was wondering about something today,so i decided to ask my wordpress family about it!

Since a month,i have changed a lot,and i have no clue why and how.I was quite a cry baby earlier,getting stressed over little things was a daily issue. I was not happy with my life,i blamed god for each of my problem(there are loads of them).It was as if,my eyes have been fitted with some dark-grey clouds that burst out and pour anytime and everytime.

But! Since a month,i have noticed a 360° transformation in my thoughts and actions.I smile a lot more,i sing and dance whole day! Befikara song,of Tiger Shroff😍 That is played on my phone,on repeat,he is so fuckin’ hot,isn’t he? 😍.And i guess,this is what i have become “befikari”!

Out of nowhere,abruptly-a befief,a faith and a hope have taken abode in my heart.They all came in,without a prior notice and settled here,permanently.

I have a lot,A LOT of things to be stressed about,I am sure everyone does.I have been through hell and back.None of you has been enlightened about the tragic side of my life but i will reveal that soon.God is not so fair sometimes. :’)

Earlier i used to be profusely worried about my future,my life.But now my “mood” remains good.Something inside me tells me in shouty-bold letters “HAVE FAITH AND STAY PATIENT,LIFE’S GONNA BE GOOD”

I now feel that i would get into a top college,complete my degree,accomplish my career goals,get married to the most loving guy and life will be perfect.This thought just naturally comes whenever a depressing thought tries to intrude into my merry life.Where has this confidence come from? What begets this faith? How did i become so hopeful? What made me believe in life? I HAVE NO IDEA.

I just woke up one fine day,and bammm!

God introduced me to a new,better Pratishtha.😊

And I LOVE HER,with all my heart.💕

So,my question is-What is the reason behind this thing called “mood”?

Does it remain good or bad naturally? I mean,my good mood these days is just natural,it is not effected by anything good or bad happening with me.How is your mood shaped? Naturally or by external circumstances? Does anyone feel the way i do? Has your mood ever instantaneously changed,without any specific reason,and that too for such a long time as mine?

I’ve heard,saints have the perfect balance of mind,who do not get affected by worldly experiences,so umm,have i become a saint? 😂 Haha! 😂 I hope not.😋

I hope i stay like this always-positive,hopeful and happy! 😊

-Pratishtha😊

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Sun shall rise.

There have to be umpteen smiles,

after those relentless cries.

Those dreams have to come true,

Seen by them resplendent eyes.

You have been in a perpetual state of lows,

Now my valorous fighter,be ready for the highs.

Don’t linger on the descending alley,

Rise,touch the skies.

It’s been dark for too long,

soon sun shall rise.

-Pratishtha😊

Something.😊

And there is always something

Some ray of light in those dark nights

that makes your life a whole lot easier and radiant,dispelling the dullness.

Some umbrella in those rainy days that protects you from getting drenched in your own tears.

Something that gives you solace during those tumultuous times.

Something that makes your heart smile even when it’s breaking.

Something that makes you feel lucky in your unluckiness.

Embrace that one thing with all your might,not with your arms,but with your heart and be grateful for it.

I am.😇

Midnight thoughts…

On one side i feel the fear,

the panic,of good old memories

fading away,

relationships being left behind

and people,close ones,

drifting apart,

of time slipping through my hands

and i dread

the changes it intends to bring about….

And on the other side,i feel euphoric and excited,

about the new people i’ll connect to

in future,

new places i’ll visit,

the good memories im yet to make,

the unexpected,pleasant surprises that await me,

the brand-new freedom and independence i’ll possess…

…………………………………………..

Oh lord,im going bonkers with all these starkly contradicting thoughts that generate such mixed emotions that make me smile and wail simultaneously.

But,i must compose myself as these thoughts,once unleashed,will not cease,nor stop from disturbing me,they won’t leave me sane,ha!…

So lets hold the horses of our brains,order them to keep their mouths shut and lets just live every damned moment,immersing ourselves only,and ONLY in the moment and lets not allow the thoughts of a beautiful past or a dreaded future haunt the little moment we have right here,right now.
#midnightthoughts😇

Pratishtha 🙂

That girl! 😍😊

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And then i could see her,so full of life.She wore a childish smile throughout the day,looking beautiful ad tantalizing on the outside.
Her face so serene,her eyes,glittering and shimmering like the stars that illuminate the dark sky,her cheeks,soft as cotton and her teeth,adorably crooked,and her short hair dancing on her shoulders as she gracefully grooved to the music she was listening.She looked beautiful.

That’s the way every eye saw her.But as i stepped a little closer,trying to recreate her picture in my heart,my heart’s eyes enlarged,blinked rapidly-my heart could see through her soul,which no other eyes could dig into.

Her oh-so-beautifully-Indian-crooked-tooth-smile didn’t touch her eyes.She imposed it on her lips forcefully,not letting anyone see through the dazzling bright smile of hers,underneath which were her darkest fears.

My heartbeat quickened as i moved my eyes up,to look at her glittering,kohl-rimmed eyes.They were like an unsolved mystery.I stared right in her eye,trying to gaze as deep as possible and in a fraction of second,i could see what no one did.

There was a glint of sadness,pain and desperation,DESPERATION FOR HAPPINESS!

I saw the unshed tears that strained hard not to pour out on her beautifully carved cheek bones but craving to be unleashed and burst out.

And through her eyes and her smile,i witnessed her damaged soul.All it took,to see through her,was a little care and understanding!

She still had that smile nicely curved on her red-full-lips and she winked her eyes as they met mine. I could read the little secret they carried,the signal her eyes conveyed,which was-
A demand
A desire
A craving
A longing
for happiness!!

Pratishtha 🙂