And sometimes,suddenly you want to go back in time and live those beautiful moments again,feel that vibe again…
You just want to be teleported to that very moment,the mere thought of which makes your lips curve upwards.
That moment so precious,that feeling ineffable.That little fairy tale you created in a few moments,you need to touch it,feel it,live it-Once more.
But all you can do is,sit and see a quick flashback of it that will disappear in a jiffy,try to feel again what you felt back then,albeit in vain,feel desolate and happy at the same time,and most of all you feel helpless,those moments are gone,leaving behind the sweet scent of memories.Sniff in that exquisite aroma,smile and move on,for the aroma is bound to get lost somewhere in the air,it will eventually.
And you did not tell her anything?
Did you not tell her that you dont want her to go away from you?
Did you not tell her that the thought of her with some other guy shatters your heart into infinite pieces?
Did you not tell her that you lovingly gaze at her pictures for minutes on end?
Did you not tell her that your heart becomes weak everynight,thinking about going away from her,making you weep incessantly?
Did you not tell her that you suppress a lump in your throat everytime you hear her voice?
Did you not tell her about all the poems you have written in your diary,glorifying hee charisma and charm?
Did you not tell her about those other poems in which you have poured out your heart and kept it bare for her to see?
Did you not tell her that you need her?
Did you not tell hee that you are still living in those moments you had spent with her and you recreate them in your head everyday?
Did you not tell her that you are deeply,madly,crazily in love with hee?
Did you not tell her anything?
“No”,he smiled,his lips quivered…I have to stay hushed about my feelings and she has to stay unaware of a heart that does not pump blood,but love,for her.
Destiny likes it this way.
But honey you are in love with
Something you don’t possess and you never will….
Something that you can admire from a distance,but never touch…
Something that can only enliven your dreamland,not your real world…
Something that you are willing to chase but can never get hold of…
Something that is up there,in the infinities of the heaven and you are stuck here on earth…
Something that is so beautiful,almost impeccable and hence the almighty did not write it in your destiny…
Something you can never have.
Don’t you know this will leave you crestfallen in the end?
“I know”,came the reply with an audacious smile.
And as the sun shone on her beautiful face in the morning,
vivacious as ever she looked
with her larger-than-life smile and gorgeous outfit
Her animated gestures would make people talk about how full of life she was
But something was wrong
Her swollen eyes,that hid behind her sunglasses narrated the story of her night,albeit no one could hear it.
Appearances are deceptive.
It was he
who unleashed my feelings
made them go wild
made me a sensual,romantic maid.
And it was again he
who taught me how to control my feelings
made me pacify them
made me a lover,disguised as a best friend.
It was a mistake
he sternly declared.
It was my goddamn fairy tale
her broken heart whispered.
She stared at the screen of her phone for hours,
waiting,rather LONGING for his reply
Though,deep inside she knew,
his insensitive and love-deficient words
would only make her feel worse.